Do you ever wish you could turn back time?
12 months ago I was in the middle of a time of pleasure with a fantastic girl. Having been starved of any sex for over 2 years here was someone who took me for who I am & who accepted my advances toward her & finally succumbed to me a year ago yesterday.
“I died & went to heaven” was the blog I wrote – I still remember the night like it was yesterday.
But just recently I feel like God is making me pay for my transgressions
My arthritis has re-surfaced with a vengeance – slipped disc in the lower back is causing tremendous pain which I’ve learned to live with over the past 2 months.
My vision has deteriorated – went to an optician for an eye test a week ago & the World exploded. Optician booked me an emergency appointment at the local hospital & from there was referred the next day to a specialist eye hospital for an emergency operation on a badly detached retina. This past week has been one of the most painful I’ve ever experienced.
All this led to blood pressure tests – now I’ve got high blood pressure & possible diabetes – all to be revealed in further tests & hospital visits.
Punishment from on High? Very likely I’d say. All my independence taken from me & the feeling of being next to useless to anyone from now on.
All this makes me a very unlikely candidate for any other girl to fancy me anymore…..yes I think it is indeed repayment for my sins.